2009-11-21 at 4:54 a.m.
we do what we need to be free
well we are. still in a relationship really. you realize that right?
this was said to me tonight. i didn't want to point out that i had been well aware for awhile. still no idea what it means. but at least he sees it the same way. kind of.
a girl in my program who i love and is totally my soul partner lured me to her house tonight by offering her boobs for my motorboating pleasure. her boyfriend is out of town, she was a little drunk and lonely and to lure me there she said i could motorboat her boobs. and i did. three times. it was totally awesome. i have a pretty massive crush on her but she's totally straight. unfortunately for me.
i have another friend. who i'm pretty sure wants to fuck me. if not for the NG entanglement, i would want to fuck him too. but he and NG have become friends. and he likes and respects him. he saw a comment i left on the friend's page and brought it up. he commented that this guy wouldn't be interested. i shouldn't have but i'm an asshole so i contradicted him. because i'm a fucking catch and just because he didn't want me, doesn't mean that other people don't. he made it clear that this would be a problem. he also made it clear he doesn't think the friend would do this but i know he would. the guy texted me today offering to fly out here for a weekend. that definitely means sex is on, yeah?
i have to be up in 6 hours for my wax. my pussy is so ready for it. and then we have a skype date. he said he'd cum for me on camera again. and you know how i feel about that.
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